finally just calmed down...guh i feel like i'm gonna be sick. i've never had a dream that bad before. head feels like its been split open with an ax. matt said i woke up screaming and i feel like i just ran a marathon to save my life but...strange thing is i can't remember much of it. think i was running on dirt or something...dunno. god i wanted to relax this weekend...now i just wanna  hide under the covers and cry like a child.